dream of nicotine

i dream of nicotine
sweet cancerous smoke
fill me once more with calm
take my hunger, my pain away
sedate me for another day

i pace
and eat
and bake
and cheat
and drink
and think
and check
i'm wrecked

the craving builds
i want to rip out my teeth
pull out my hair
i'm filled with despair,
and nobody seems to care

pussies
afraid of a little lung cancer
maybe a death by choice
is the easiest answer

i stress
and i'm a mess
so many people to rob
i should try and get a job
and if there's one thing i regret
it's not saving a cigarette