hopeful/realist

the cravings come like a storm,
disrupting all my plans.
to defy the storm takes great strength,
but it's better in the end.
better in that, if I hide from the storm,
out of fear, then it becomes harder and harder to face it,
as my fear grows. Test myself. If I cannot handle the storm,
i will train myself and reemerge when i am better equipped.

But now, i see,
that i may feed the storm. Will this allow me to befriend it's destructive forces?
Or will it only use me to wreak havoc as it sees fit.
My stomach turns cuz my brain never learns.

Wish me luck