Maria Pastora

i smoked some salvia tonight
i guess i did alright.
it felt like i fell thru the floor
fell thru the couch
i'd been this far before

i'm a tube
i'm a tunnel
i'm inside myself
the world rolled up
like it was flat
was it rolling me like a joint?
was i the weed inside?

was it like, turning my head
not up or down
or all around
but inside out
or something there abouts

a swirl of voices
and time rolling out in front of me
i can hear the past by looking ahead
what the hell is this?
can it be in my head?

warning from loved ones
don't fuck this up
when some reach the bottom
they never come up

am i asking for death?
am i already there?
am i losing my mind?
or becoming aware?