standstill

it's all wrong
my motivation is lost

"you run and you run to catch up with the sun but it's sinking,
racing around, to come up behind you again"

i need something
a goal,
at least a vision of the future
my dreams are incongruous with my reality

where am i going?

a step in any direction takes me further
closer and further
the walls are closing in
too many wasted nights
too much wasted time

i'm waiting on a sign that's just not coming

choose your illusions wisely
they define you

i find solace in a quiet winter night
snow falling, wind biting my face
cold rushing through my bones
i know i'm alive

but i don't know what i'm living for