exasperated

I don't know what to do
Keep going
Push through
Will it get better,
or hurt again?
How many times...

Am I an idiot,
for getting worked up?
Or am I an idiot,
for trying to forget.

I don't fucking get it
Maybe I never will
I'll swallow my pride,
while I throwback a pill

*sigh*

I should cry
because it hurts to consider
But I'm not that surprised
This shits making me bitter