stream of thought

Ok, so that last post. Not my finest work. Or maybe it was. I don't even know anymore.

Hard time sleeping. Getting short with people. Impatient and intolerant too, though I'm keeping it to myself mostly. Perhaps I should speak up more when something is bothering me.

It's difficult to know when to speak up, and when to bite your tongue.

Plans moving around for the holidaze. Got some events lined up for next week. Trying to plan accordingly. Finances aren't great, but I've got a couple lifelines to bail me out until the cash flow resumes.

It's a hard time of year to work at a call centre.

What a boring blog. I should probably rant more. People say to write what you know, what do I know again? Call centre work, last in first out, deep frying chicken and potatoes, hotel clerk work, international phonetic alphabet, local air port codes, CPR, orienteering, how to use a paddle, how to start a fire, how to build a shelter in the woods, how to chop wood, how to swim, how to push start a standard transmission vehicle, how to find the North Star, how to tell your fortune using standard playing cards, how to bust up a pill for ease of consumption, how to roll a joint, how to change guitar strings, how to change a flat-tire, how to make some tasty french toast, how to clean a toilet, how to tell if I'm tripping, how to bust up morning glory seeds for ease of consumption, how to use a snow blower, how to make a molotov, ok, maybe I'm just reaching now. But I know a lot of varied things, I guess, was my point.

Choosing a topic can be....

Fuck, this is garbage. I think I need another hiatus to develop some ideas. I've got a few ideas perhaps not well suited for this blog format. Perhaps ideal for it, but either way, I'm going to write them out the old fashioned way, hard-copy, pen and paper style. Exercise my demons. Yes I mean exercise.

Bust out the Dr.Grip, it's been a while since it more than doodled or jotted. Yeah, I know what kind of pen I use.

I still haven't gotten that confidence boost, but this time next week, I should be annoyingly confident. After a few days, I should resume a more normal mode of thought, but perhaps with a new elevated baseline. Here's hoping.

I think I have been positive in outlook as of late. I am looking at the future with excitement, and not fear. Well some, but more excitement. My birthday is between Christmas and new year's as well, I usually don't plan on doing much, as hardly anyone is up for it, but I have been surprised before. It could be a pretty kick-ass holiday season.

Happy holidaze everyone, may random find you well. I'll 'see' you in the future.
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