discussion with self

agitation
excess and deprivation
burnout

the hand of addiction
has a firm grip on me
or I on it
either way, i need to diversify
it's like, as soon as i am bored or upset,
i reach for an inebriant.
i like to run from my problems i guess
and i am ashamed

a taste of summer
flavours the wind
reminding me of the seasonal changes
do i too change with the seasons?
am i ending a hibernation cycle?
a death cycle,
and entering the season of growth
i am unsure what wonders this warm weather season will hold,
but i am anxious to find out.