Stream of thought

So, it looks like I'll be moving soon. Saturday to be precise. I've got an appointment made to have an internet connection installed that night. I have work the next morning, that'll be my first shift at my new place of residence.

I'm pretty excited, and pretty nervous. It's been a while since I've lived with anyone that wasn't a member of my immediate family. And I've never lived with a significant other, or even really had one. I imagine I'll learn not only about her, but about myself as well. And I do enjoy learning after all.

Of course I realize, this could be bad. I could learn that I am incredibly hard to live with, or a neat freak, or too much of a dork for her. I could find her to be unbearably messy, or too demanding, or even too boring. These all seem quite unlikely really, and I'm not worried about them. I'm more worried about not being able to put in more hours at work, or it being loud around the apartment while I'm trying to work. Also, if we get mad at each other, I don't really know where I'm going to go to cool off. I'll figure it out though. We're usually pretty good at resolving stuff quickly, so hopefully it won't come up for a while.

I am concerned that my interest in drugs might be troublesome. For instance; I would like to make some poppy-seed tea, for the morphine and codeine contained within, but I don't want my girlfriend to be ashamed of or disappointed in me, and I also don't want her to right like it and get hooked or something, then it would be my fault, and I would be guilt-ridden. Perhaps I'd do well to stick with cannabis. Green Dragon is quite the fun concoction.

She does generally eat healthier than me, and I'm hoping some of that will rub off on me. I could certainly stand to benefit from that. Neither of us is very active right now, she likes the summer, I don't know why I've been sticking close to home recently. I guess I've got a lot on my mind, but really, all the more reason to stretch your legs. I might go take a walk tonight, visit the local watering hole one last time before I 'ship out'.

There's another thing; alcohol. How much is too much? I feel guilty even having my first drink now. It's almost midnight, there's no reason I should feel guilty, is there? I paid for this alcohol, I worked tonight, put in my full shift, even stayed late to make up for my break running long.

I feel like a broken record a bit, am I getting redundant? Well, at least I've got some major novelty coming into my life in the near future, should shake things up a bit, make me more interesting. Keep things fresh. Ok, now I'm a slogan generator.

May random find you well.