Record of bupropion first use

11:15PM;
I just took half of an extended release Wellbutrin. Half of 150mg is 75mg. This is my first experience with this drug, and as such, I am keeping it low and slow. Low doses, slow increases. I probably won't consider taking the other half until at least 1AM. This drug, used for smoking cessation, anti-depression and off-label for ADD/ADHD, is supposed to have stimulant like effects. Also, it is supposed to make cigarettes less enjoyable. I better go smoke one now.

11:30PM;
Felt I should mention I drank two coffees in the last two hours and am having a tea now. I'm out of coffee, that's why I switched to tea. I'm a little nervous and excited, sort of like trying a new food, except there's a chance the food might give you a seizure. Wellbutrin lowers the seizure threshold, making it easier for your brain to fall into a feedback loop. I have some antihistamines(lortadine) and some Seroquel to bring me down should I feel the need. I'm going to go watch some Samurai Jack while I wait for the drug to take effect.

12:00AM;
Vision seems clearer, sharper perhaps. Am I more focused? Bit of a headache, but that's been around for a few days now. Took an ibuprofen. Not too concerned with the possibility of a seizure now. Feeling a little drowsy, like I could lay down and sleep. Best not test that though, as I would like to visit with Michelle before I sleep. I will try and roll up another smoke to see if it is unsatisfying, as indicated in the literature for Wellbutrin.

12:20AM;
My head feels a little thick now, almost like it's full of water. I'm still quite focused and my vision is sharp. My eyes aren't noticeably dilated or constricted.

12:36AM;
Just spoke with Michelle, she gave me a call. Going to visit her at work in a few minutes. Feeling pretty good. I experienced some abdominal discomfort earlier, but they may have been the coffee, tea and ibuprofen as well. Michelle did not comment that I sounded inebriated or anything. I am going to bring my travel cup to get a coffee from her when I go. I will likely take the rest of the Wellbutrin when I get home. Should be around 1:30AM, maybe 2:00AM.

1:45AM;
Got back from my visit with Michelle. Feeling good. Took the second half moments ago. It was slightly smaller than the first, maybe 80mg and 70mg instead of 75 each. I may end up breaking another pill apart to try it via insufflation. I was pacing around a bit when I went to see her, as she pointed out when I mentioned eating the half pill earlier. Cigarettes do not seem to be greatly diminished, although I understand the dosage may be higher for the nicotine blocking effect to occur. I don't think I will require any come-down pills, but truly it is too early to tell. I found myself punding a bit, looking too hard for cigarette butts to get their tobacco. Definite dopamine activity. Ten minutes after eating the second half of the pill now, my stomach feels a little full, possibly due to the coffee or peanut butter cookie I consumed beforehand. Haven't been grinding my teeth, but I was chewing gum quite vigorously earlier. 2:00AM now, going to watch some more Samurai Jack, and maybe listen to some music, or maybe even play some. Not too loud though, it is 2AM after all.

3:00AM;
I haven't read or watched any Samurai Jack. I've been watching Jon Lajoie videos, and thinking about checking out his live show next month when he comes to town. Still feel pretty good, pretty alert. My stomach feels better too.

3:10am;
Just insufflated a quarter pill. Burns somewhat, not as much as amitriptyline, but more than say, serax or ritalin. Another quarter remains all busted up beside me. I may just eat it. Ok, I just ate it, and let me tell you, pretty gross. Keep that shit pretty much intact I'd say. That was the first line I've had in at least 8 months, it was before Christmas the last time I sniffed anything. I don't see it becoming a habit again. Too burny. My mouth is quite numb, interesting to note. So, after this last half, I should be up around 225mg. Hopefully, I won't have a seizure or anything too crazy. I'm going to have a cigarette to see if it has a diminished quality about it. First I need a candy though, this tastes horrible.

3:25AM;
Cigarettes seem to be pretty tasty still. My mind feels like it's gone quiet. I read somewhere that you don't think much on Wellbutrin, just absorb information. I think I know what they mean now. Even now, as I type this out, it seems to only occur as I type it, not in my head beforehand. It is a little strange. I'm going to try and relax a bit, possibly give Michelle a call, see what she's up to. Maybe I will go outside, get some fresh air.

5:13AM;
Ok, so, no seizures, and I've been basically reading online for hours. I spoke with Michelle, but we were both pretty distracted, so not much was said. I went outside, nothing special going on there. Music is good, but right now, I'm finding myself easily reading for long periods of time, that seems to be my main interest. I will likely still be up to go get Michelle at 7:00AM when she's done work. I don't know if I'll take a lortadine later yet. I guess basically, the experiment was a success. I now have some idea what to expect from this drug. I will update in the coming days if anything else worthy of note occurs to me.

In the meantime; may random find you well.
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UPDATE;
I found myself quite silent throughout the night, and somewhat short. I was upset fairly easily, although I basically just stopped talking what little I was. The drug may lead to some irritability, but that could just be lack of sleep and money. May use again in future, not highly recreational.

7:22PM the following day,
Feeling a little down, but hard to say if that's the drug or my day. Not planning to do much tonight, bake some cookies, visit Michelle at work, maybe call the folks, and sit around and relax.
No seizure activity, that's cool. No cigarettes though, that's not. Ahh well, payday tomorrow.
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End of the Month

I'm a little nervous about the end of the month now. It looks as though we'll be evicted on the twenty-third of this month, and we only have a new place to live as of the first of next month. Obviously, that poses a problem. Not so much where will we stay, we can get a cheap hotel room for a week, but where will we keep all our stuff? We have a rather large bed, a fish tank, a cage with three ferrets, a few chairs, some tables, the usual stuff really. Too much to bring to a hotel room. Also, as I work from home over the internet, so, if we stay in a hotel room for a week, I'll have to take a week off I guess.

Not only that, we'll have to pay the first month's rent, along with the damage deposit, and this month's rent that we didn't pay yet. Plus I need to get my criminal record check for school by the twenty-eighth, and make my way out to Dieppe some time soon to meet with a Training and Skills Development Canada officer or counsellor, I don't know what they like to be called yet.

But, I have been working a lot more. Today makes five days in a row, haven't done that in a while. If I continue working everyday for the next two weeks or so, I should have a good check for the end of the month too. Michelle wants to do something, maybe go on a little weekend trip to Halifax or something around Moncton.

That gives me an idea; we had wanted to go camping when we were in Bathurst, but were too busy. Perhaps this might be a good time to go camping. It is getting late in the summer now, the campgrounds should be fairly emptied out, if we even go to one. We should be pretty well set to relax for a few days. Hell, we could maybe camp instead of getting a hotel room. Shower at a friend's place, hope for good weather, that sorta thing. Food for thought anyway.

Well, work is getting a little busier, so I best focus on that for a while. May random find you well.
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