Questions and Answers

Here is a quick jotted list of questions i had for my spouse, in case I forget(valium);


Questions asked and answered;


Is Marc Bernard an ape-man? - Not exactly
Is he bigger than me? - Yes
Bigger cock or not proportional ?- I DoN'T KnoW! (evasive)
Cuz u said I was the biggest - not much of an answer given, basically "I DON'T KNOW!"
can beat me up not a big deal - Check
army; not a fan cuz Marc? - What? (Ricky DUnn, u said not army man) Well, I don't know marc wasn't in the army when i was with him he was retired (but did it MAKE him crazy?) No more than he already was....

Unasked;
Do you think the sex was unpleasant cuz you were both on speed, and didn't realize the dryness/increased longevity would make things difficult? Knowing that now, do you think things with Marc could at some point(say I die) be given another shot?
Or was it not unpleasant, just awkward? BASICALLY; WTF happened with him and you? WHEN, did you cheat on Stephane? Nah, i think it was between him and Kevin. But yah, what happened after? Did you talk to him the next day? How are you guys now? You gave him all your movies? Do you love him? He get army pension/sorry I'm a broke-ass?

Gay-Dan
Did you sleep in his bed(if so; with him? spooning?)? Kissing, like thank you kiss on the cheek(doubtful)? Hold each other close? bum touching(if so, who's)? Did he touch your tits(if so, thru shirt, bra or bare)? Crotch touches? just hand on pants or like crotch-to-crotch? How did that visit end? Talk to him after? When 'falling out' happened/why? No nudity, right?

5(or 6) guys Or 6? WTF? 1 may or may not count? May or may not have happened(don't know/remember)? Any from BHS? How many after Stephane? Sure never cheated? Anyone I know? Anyone named Steve or Bryan? No Jack either? All from Bathurst?

others
How many just got hj or bj or to give you one? Making out often include heavy petting? How many cocks you figure you've touched besides the 5-6 guys? How many seen(doesn't matter really)? How many guys have touched your vag? Tasted?
How many guys you think you went on a date/made out(or kissed)/hooked up/fooled around with?

ME
Is there anything I can do to set myself apart more so? How can I be better? Do you want to know anything about me/my past? Why do you feel the need to keep secrets from me? Do you trust me(I know, just you always ask me when I worry)?
Why aren't we having sex? Can I do something to improve the situation? Am I really the best you've ever had(i'd believe it, you seemed genuinely surprised a few times, heh heh)? The biggest(I know, size doesn't matter all that much, and mine kinda varies.... but it's ok if marc 'the monkey' bernard had a bigger wang. I still don't understand that shit...)?

YOU
Do you prefer women? ARE YOU SURE? Would you like to try that out maybe? Are you holding a grudge/punishing me(with regard to sex I mean, obviously you are in other ways 8P)? Am I stifling you(like too in your space)? Do you need some space? Why is there always some reason why you can't get comfortable with sex? When did that start? Was it when I moved in? Not long after perhaps? The summer you worked a ton and I hardly worked? Can we try to get more comfortable talking about(and hopefully having!) sex? PLEASE!!! Do you know I am jealous of thomas? I'm jealous of the camera, as you seem to be willing to do more with it than with me? I'm jealous of David, who some days seems to be more important to you than me? Are you pushing me away? WHAT'S UP WITH YOU?!?!?!?!?!


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End of list
So, am I crazy? IS this none of my business? Am I retarded? I don't know

Venting

What's going on these days?
What's all new and exciting?
What've you been up to?

Well, you see,
I've been changing.

I'm dating this girl now, and things are going quite well.
We've even met each other's parents.

But, I am sort of hung up a bit on some things.
She has lots of friends. Guy friends.
She doesn't seem attracted to them, but at the same time, I can't help but feel threatened.

She talked about her old boyfriend not trusting her, and being mad that she would hang out with this guy that would drive her home from work everyday. She would say, "What, don't you trust me?", to which he must of course reply yes. Thing is though, her ex was right. I was the guy driving her home. We weren't romantically involved at the time, but you better believe the thought was there. On my end at least.

So the thing is this; she has this friend, this guy, that drives her to and from work almost everyday. I even asked the guy if he likes her, and he said yes. I don't know if the lady-friend knows he does though, I felt it would be rude to tell her myself. Also, she might not believe me, which might lead to a fight, her calling me paranoid (and possibly being right), me being upset with her, and her going to spend time with him.

I don't know, she says I should trust her, but I'm scared.

It's like, I have no desire to go and spend time alone with other girls, because I don't even want to tempt fate. But she doesn't seem to feel the same way.

Maybe I'm just paranoid. Again I remind myself; who does she take to bed. Be appreciative. She likes to spend time with you Marc, enjoy that.

But that's another thing; I'm almost afraid to ask her about things sometimes. Like, I don't want to upset her, or learn something I didn't want to know about her, and ruin our relationship. So, do I just keep my mouth shut and enjoy it while it lasts? That seems sort of sad. Just try to smile, don't think too much.

What if that makes me resent her? That's no good...

Lastly, because I've been shy my whole life, I don't have a lot of experience to draw on. In fact, I've already had a number of significant events with her. First repeat sexual partner, first time sober, first time biting on the ass, first real girlfriend even.

She's already done these things, so, am I having more fun?

And what am I to her, average?

Well, I suppose, there is one thing I did that no one else had before. She gets really ticklish after an orgasm, and she said that never happened with anyone else before. Am I doing something well, or something wrong, I don't really know. Lack of experience. Although I will say this, I don't understand why so many guys have a hard time getting their women off. Do a little reading, figure out the biology.

Ahh well, I feel better just having articulated my thoughts like this. Hopefully, we will continue to enjoy each others company for quite some time.

May random find you well.
K O R I T F W